Well, Posse- I’ve neglected to make the official announcement here, but my husband and I are the proud parents of a beautiful baby girl! She was born 3 1/2 weeks ago, weighing 7 lbs 12 oz and measuring 20 1/2 inches long. She’s gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous.
….18 hour pause in writing…
Okay, back to this post. Pardon its previously incompleteness. Everything seems to take longer now that I’m a mom.
Anyhow, the little Peanut is taking a nap, which means I can jump back in to writing for a few minutes until hunger strikes her tiny little belly, then who knows how long it will be until I proceed with writing.
One of the most powerful experiences in human life is having a child. I still have to glance at my girl several times a day and remind myself that I’m no longer the wondering young adult I once was. I mean, I’m still a young adult- I’m mostly referring to the ‘wondering’ part. Today I looked across the prayer room and saw a herd of new students and could practically taste their angst. I actually find it endearing. The thicket of questions we get ourselves caught in as single young people is perfectly torturous in the way it preoccupies our time.
“What is my calling?”… “Where am I supposed to live?”… “Who am I going to marry?”… “Will I ever get old enough to have any kids?” …
Seeing these all too familiar looming questions in the eyes of these new students makes me smirk. Why? Because I know that they will one day subside. Now a wife and mother, it’s truly amazing looking back and reflecting on all the time I spent wondering about this and that, mostly trying to determine who my future spouse would be and how that poor man would fit into my “calling”, whatever that meant.
All I can say is I’m grateful for my life as it is. The future is what it is, and I’m sure I’ll revisit many questions from time to time as to “what’s next?” like I have in the past, but for now I am greatly satisfied to be loved by Jesus and to love Him with everything in my life. My daughter is seeing to that. Her name means “guileless wisdom”.
